I'm Not Over, I'm Not Over You Just Yet. Cannot Hide It, You're Not That Easy To Forget.

Knowledge and insight can often come from the most interesting places. Last night I had a deep and meaningful conversation with one of my friend's Mums online. I really should stop calling her 'My friend's Mum' because we have our own kind of relationship in our own right and I have known her for a decade or more now. I guess we just never really talked in lots of detail until the last few months.

You know often at times I feel quite alone on the journey I am on. I know people go through it but no one directly close to me. My 3 best friends are married, one is due to have a baby and so on.
My theatre friends are young.

My Three Best Friends. From Left: Marianne (Who is due to have a baby in 2 weeks), Rachael and Chantelle.

She brought up a certain topic and I just rolled with it. Anyway, I am a creature of forming habits or safety nets and sticking with them because the idea of changing things is very scary and I am a wuss when it comes to getting hurt.

She then said one line to me that probably was the most, hmmm a word.... Well it was like a giant slap in the face. By this I don't mean hurtful or spiteful, I mean it was like a giant wake up. A check on reality.

Aside from that, this woman who I always found quite strong and sure of herself, a woman who seemed to have a grip on everything and absolute control showed me that she herself had weaknesses and could literally describe word for word how I feel each day, each night and on this journey.

Even though there were moments of sad reflection, it was really good for me to hear that I am not crazy or ridiculous. She literally described without provocation things she felt and still feels and said she is confident I am going through the same thing. She's absolutely, freakishly right.

I really admire this woman, I really look up to her and I, for some reason, find her really easy to talk to and confide in. Already she knows things about me that I have never told anyone. Funny the friendships you make right??? Or how the most unexpected people turn out to be great influences and insight. My life certainly is interesting.