Parental Guidance Recommended (Explicit Lyrics)

The last few days have been moderate, well, I will say from Friday/Saturday. I still am not going to deny that I still feel moments of low but so far ok. I think the thing getting to me the most at the moment is a lack of sleep. Whenever I get moments of high stress, I end up having nightmares. Have been like this my whole life (My parents and ex could testify to this).

I often have recurring nightmares too, the most common being that I can't stop vomiting. This particular one, however, has at present not shown itself. The ones of the last week or so have been quite a bit more severe.

Take some examples of ones I have had since Saturday night.
1: I dreamt a faceless gunman came and shot my family, unsuccessful in killing anyone, until he reached my big brother and shot him 7 times and killed him, pools of blood everywhere. (Quite graphic)
2: I dreamt I was killed and watching myself as it happened (The details of it I am quite vague on)
3: I dreamt scorpians dug their way under my skin and infested my body.

These are just three of them (And three of the ones tame enough to put on here). I don't know why it happens. I was reading a website on it which said:

Nightmares, unlike night terrors, can be recalled afterward and are accompanied by much less anxiety and movement. These frightening dream experiences, which tend to occur at times of insecurity, emotional turmoil, depression, or guilt, can occur in all age groups.

Nightmares occur exclusively during REM sleep. REM sleep phases grow longer in the latter part of the sleep cycle, and the majority of nightmares occur from the middle of the night onward.

I often wake up crying, panting or with a highly increased heart rate. The last couple of nights have been tough as I have had consecutive ones which wake me up frequently so I feel rather sleepy.

It is different on your own trying to calm yourself down from one. I remember growing up my Mother would have them often and would scream like murder! Thank god I don't react the same. I think tonight I am going to take sleeping pills and maybe I will bomb out!

Oh well, let's try and get a positive take on this, maybe in dream interpretation they all mean I am going to win lotto or be swept off my feet by Luke Wilson or Josh Duhamel or Johnny Depp? (Well, you get the idea :-P)

One can, excuse the pun, dream! :)