I Don't Got Nothing Worth Having If I Don't Got You.

So once again it has been a while. The truth is, being a uni student takes up a lot of time... That and my ever active social life = no posting. So here we go again.

The week or so that was (2 weeks?)

I am truly one of the luckiest people around to have the friends I do. I say this often in blog posts but I just feel it isn't reiterated enough.

I had a few fights with friends over the last couple of weeks. Stressful time for everyone I guess and me being me, the bossy and argumentative type doesn't help.

The worst for me (And sorry if I am impugning any of the others I fought with) would have been Andrew. I love this man, he is a doll. He is my male bestie (Addy and Dave don't count here as they are a WHOLE other story ;)). I can talk to Andy about anything and everything, and I do. We have a really strong connection, so much so that people always say to us "Are you two together?"... Ummmm, no! It is NOT like that..... He is married and I think is wife is lovely :-) Amanda knows me and knows I pose no threat. Aside from this, Andy knows where my heart is right now. (Hear me justifying? It should be ok for guys and girls to be mates!)

Me and Andrew.

Anyway, irrelevant. I was bitter at Andrew. Unfortunately the case is he *IS* my tutor in several units (And he is not allowed to mark me) and we let a professional conflict get in the way of our personal relationship. Andy is SUPER sensitive and will never have a go at you, he will go in a corner and cry and not tell you until he is pushed to. And I mean this literally. I, however, am very forceful upfront and it is damn right clear when I am unhappy.

Then Andy made a MASSIVE sacrifice for me... For me... without discussing with me first what he was going to do which made me even more upset because I didn't want him to do that. (On the basis that my issue was not with him personally and as my friend I understood it was out of his control)

Bah, the point is, we had a fight at uni, everyone watching (Gretchen included) and Jenny intervened. I was crying, he was... it was a mess. But then he said to me "I love you... I would never do what I did for any friend, but you are different... I did it for you because you matter more to me"...

And with that, I bawled. To know I have met someone who is willing to do what he did.

I know it sounds like I am emotional alot. But you know, for a decade I felt NOTHING. I lived in a hell with nothing. In the past 2.5 years I have had these AMAZING things happen and am experiencing all these emotions I never knew existed.

Yesterday we had to go on an excursion with uni and him and I wandered around the art gallery taking the piss out of everything and at the end, I gave him a hug and said to him "I am so sorry about a shitty couple of weeks" and then he gave me a big hug and said "I love you so much, and I am never going anywhere OK!... EVER... NEVER!"

Me and Andy Yesterday At The Art Gallery and PICA.

I find it very difficult to trust because of people leaving my life so often, but you know, people like Andy give that glimmer of hope. And he is just one of many amazing people I have around me.

My birthday showed that... so many people there. Each one I love very much for different reasons. I could have invited a whole swagger more of my friends, but I picked the ones who thus far have been most influential... and about 25 were there with me.

Thank you all for such an amazing and awesome birthday. The words you all expressed to me throughout that whole week was beyond amazing. Love you all. 10 years of hell for 3 years of love and support and just incredible gifts of friendship...